Stop and Stare

The people have finally spoken

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Well done and well said.

Power to the people!

Song of the moment : Earlimart - Bloody Nose

Three Wishes

It's not that I'm being pessimistic or negative

I'm just being realistic

Those kind of things only happen in fairy tales and I'm pretty sure I'm not in one

But that's not to say I don't wish upon a star.

Song Album of the moment : Juno Original Soundtrack

Hmmm

You know what's really weird? No. Well here's your lucky day cos I'm gonna tell you. Have you ever been in a situation where you just discovered a new word, a word you that before this you have never ever heard of, and then once you've learn the word it's like everywhere! Newspapers, books, tv and even on freaking menus wtf. It's like the world learn the word the same time you did. What's up with that? Coincidence? I don't think so. Cos this thing has happen to me like 3 times already and the third one is the straw that broke the camel's back (cheh wah). So what the hell is going on? Sigh. I was in the mood for writing and this is what I came up with? wtf.

Ok ok so I wanna sum up what has happened during my holidays (which is going to end soon. TAK NAK!) but I'm only gonna tell you the happy things haha. My first week was spent in Penang where I got to bond with the cousins then we went to Bukit Merah where I drove my dad's car without him knowing it haha so don't tell him that, seriously. Then I got back to KL and finally started my driving lessons haha well I actually planned on having my P license by the time I wrote this post but sadly I don't have them yet and I don't want to talk bout that dreaded day for many other depressing reasons haha. Aaanyways a few days later I went to a camp in PD where I got to hang wit my Nowhere Uni friends and had weird late night convo and unexpected revelations.

Then on the 21st we had a really cool secret santa thing for Christmas (so cool that we're making it an annual thing, I hope) and after that we went to jin hang's place to play nintendo wii and poker haha, skip a few days and we were hanging out on Christmas eve at *drum rolls* McDonalds haha, had an awesome new years at freds place (we miss you freddy!) where we played a resolution game (btw mine was to be someone that I would like and the other is to be happy with what happens and have no regrets on what didn't happen, now thats deep haha kidding, sorry inside joke. and oh ya i would also like to steal jon's resolution which is to love the family more), then after some miscommunication we had bbq at haow kang's place (which i like better than yours fred haha kidding again) which is also a farewell thing for those leaving in january sob sob and finally saying goodbye to the leaving friends at the airport.

So it has been a very eventful holiday as you can see and of course the bestest is being able to hang out with the best friends gossiping and talking bout everyone who is not there aka our bonding time haha. I'm gonna miss you guys!

Song of the moment : A Fine Frenzy - Ashes & Wine

Almost, But

Hey, so if you actually know me you'll know that I'm not the most open person in the world. I keep everything inside for reasons that I myself don't quite understand. I rarely let anyone in and if someone gets too close I pull away.

Aaaanyways I was thinking about death a lot the couple of days (maybe cos I was at the hospital a lot) and I began to wonder what if I had died (don't worry I'm fine) and no one got to know the real me. My family and friends would have memories of who they think is me but in reality it's actually not. And that scared me cos I won't be there to tell them how wrong they are, no one will. Then I thought about what my friends and family would say about me and how they would contradict each other which I think would be pretty funny (for me) and shocking (for them).

I am actually 2 different people (no not in a nikki/jessica way). Who I am with my family is different with who I am with my friends. Which is the real me? Most definitely not who I am with my family. Believe it or not my family are the ones who have no freaking idea who I am but sadly they think that they are the one who actually knows me. Well here's the truth who I am to my friends are pretty close to who I truly am but not quite yet. I still hold back when I'm with them. Maybe cos I'm afraid, of what I'm not sure.

So in case I die (which everyone will sooner or later, hopefully later) here's something that you most probably don't know bout me (actually one person do know bout this, but she might have forgotten). I create, make up, narrate, whatever you want to call it, stories in my head. I would have a storyline and everything based on fictional characters and sometimes based on non-fictional characters. All my stories are usually very angst and deals with real life situation. I won't tell you what its about nor will I share them cos that would be too much.

I don't know why I do it. Maybe cos I'm bored and have nothing better to do or cos I hate my life and so I create another world where I can escape or maybe cos I was a writer in my pass life or maybe it's because I have no life. Yes I'm feeling really down bout myself right now. And all that I can think about is to just go somewhere far away and escape everything. But I'll come back though cos no matter what running away is not the answer.

Sorry bout the angst post everyone. Btw here's a quote that I keep hearing and it can't seem to get out of my head

"Always remember that you are unique, just like everyone else"

Song of the moment : The Last Goodnight - Pictures of You

It's over. It's so over.

I had so much hope on you

You were the one that wasn't going to disappoint me

You were suppose to make it all better

I expected this from the rest but never from you

Thats why its hurting so much more

But I dont blame you

Its not your fault

I only have myself to blame.

Jigsaw Falling Into Place

I feel like I'm on top of the world!

And no one can take this feeling away from me, especially not you.

Song of the moment: Dave Barnes - Until You

Where There's Gold...

Time flies. Kelip mata buka mata kelip mata buka mata and it is already nearing the end of my 3rd semester at Nowhere Uni. My finals is in a week or so and biasala i'm so not prepared for it. I think this would be THE semester. I can feel it in my guts. But watever, I dont care. Seriously.

I've been thinking, why should i try so hard to excel in something when it is not something i want to truly do? Don't get me wrong, it's not that I dont give a shit. I do. I'm not that selfish cos if I was then I wouldn't be here. But here's the thing it's in my nature to want to be good in everything that I do. But maybe this time I could make an exception. Cos maybe i'm just tired. Tired of trying to keep everyone happy.

So this semester I acted a little selfish. I did the things that I want. And everything turned out great. I made new friends (well some were not exactly new la. I mean we were friends before but now we became friends, got it? ahhaha) and I was involved in one of the biggest event here which is EDX 20 (Engineering Design eXhibiton).

EDX is an event held every semester where students from third and final year are able to present their designs/projects to be judged. This semester EDX20 introduced a new category which was open innovation (OIC) where anyone was able join. So one of my friends decided to take a chance and enter us in. Luckily for us we got one of our lecturers as an advisor and he gave us his idea on what we should do. And let me tell you preparing for EDX was a whole lotta fun. Plus my group members were awesome. No one could have pick a better team.

Aaaanyways here are some photos that we took

Pre-EDX

The EE Lab where we did our circuit
( We felt so out of place as we were from chemical and petroleum programme)

Our work table
(it looks very organized rite? actually I wanted to make it look messy but then tak berjaya)

Cheh concentrationg konon

Kuhan smiling at God knows what
(See those rulers on the table? We have no idea where they are now)

Adonis and I posing with our finished base

Presenting "A System to Uphold Exam Integrity"
(it looks so lonely...)

Our finished poster
( We stayed up till 5.30am to finish it!)

Taking a break while designing our booth

EDX 20 - Day One

Opening Ceremony of EDX 20 at undercroft
(its located below our chancellor complex; so we're actually "underground")

I want! I want! I want!

The team minus Adonis cos he went back to change wtf

CheatBusters
(such a lame name, i know. trust me the previous name was lame-r)

Our very "shy" system
(first time its being shown to people)

Kuhan presenting, Nirash looking confused and Adonis well I have no idea

Our system being judged (wah... center of attention...)

Me with the system (poyonyer)

First time EDX was held at the Chancellor Complex
(the building behind me is the library)

EDX 20 - Day Two

We won! We won!
(We won the gold medal, got 2nd for most innovative award and was awarded best presenter for OIC)

The complete team
(from left: Kuhan, Adonis, Dr Balbir, Nirash, Me, Aiman)

Song of the moment : Matchbox Twenty - How Far We've Come

Turning Point

You know that feeling when you want something so badly but you end up not getting it and instead someone else gets it. It gets worse when that person dont even appreciate the oppurtunity that they are given. Life's not fair. I've known this since forever but the dissapointment is still there.

Usually when I dont get something that I really really want I'd be in this really bad mood and I dont talk to my friends (and they would think that I was mad at them but actually I'm not, well to some of them that is) and my whole day would just sux and all I wanna do is just go back to my room and sleep and pretend like nothing happened. But of course I can't do that. Why? Cos life's like that.

Then after a few days (one week tops) I'd eventually get over the dissapointment and just learn to accept the descision. Thats how I usually deal with things that I dont like happening to me. I'd just make myself realise that somehow there's a reason for everything that happens, that God has this plan for me to go through all this. But unfortunately I would only realise this after a few days and by that time the damage is already done.

Song of the moment : Dashboard Confessional - The Shade of Poison Trees

October Baby

wow emonyer post kat bawah tu
must have been one of those days. luckilly i'm over it, i think

so aaanyways eventhough i have like 4 tests coming up, 2 assignemts to hand up and 2 projects to be finished (hopefully by next week) I still had the time to watch all these amazing premieres

heres how i rate them

1. greys anatomy
2. heroes
3. prison break
4. desperate housewives
5. private practice

oh ya and tomorrows my bday!!! So to sort of celebrate i'm going to go out with some of my friends for dinner later tonight at pizza hut (see how sad it is here, the only decent place to eat is pizza hut!). I actually had something planned for this dinner but shit happens and its times like this that I remember why you can never replace them.

Song of the moment : Crosby, Stills, Nash, and Young - Our House

She says

All I want to know right now is

Did they even notice I wasn't there?

I kinda have a feeling I know the answer to that but I pray to God that I'm wrong. If its true that I'll finally know just how insignificant I am to them. Funny thing is they still dare to ask why I'd prefer spending time with everyone but them.

Song of the moment : Paolo Nutini - Last Request

Crashed

WAKE UP!

That my friend was my long awaited wake up call which I've been waiting for since last semester but never came. Hence, the situation that I got myself into now. My so-called nilai dan pengajaran of the week

NEVER GO BACK WHEN YOU HAVE TEST THAT WEEK!

I went back and ended up I got 9.5/29 for my test. 9.5! 9.5!! And did I mention I had 2 freaking test on that day and this was the paper that I thought I did better at. So who knows what marks i'll get for the other paper, sigh.

Ya sure whatever... its just a test rite. Well I can't help it that I'm a nerd inside! Ahhaha

Aaaanyways today I managed to preoccupy myself of making an ambigram/anagram (all your fault sieutheng!) of my name which is quite easy (if you wanna make an ambigram that is) but nooooo I want an ambigram/anagram so first I had to think of a word to incorporate with my name and till now I havent found one ahhaha

So instead now at this moment (after getting an sms from my friend reminding me that I have a test tomorrow) I'll be focusing my attention on TPW. Bet you can't guess what that stands for haha

p.s. ya i know this post very takde isi but I havent blog in quite some time and I actually did have something in mind to blog about but last minute I thought better not la... so thats why you are left with this meaningless post and if you're still reading this I would like to apologize for wasting your time which you could have spent doing something else. And right now I'm just blabbing and procrastinating myself from actually switching off the computer and going to study (see I'm a nerd!). Ok la... I better stop now. Seriously.

Song of the moment : Sara Bareilles - Gravity

Bittersweet Symphony

Yay! I've officially survived my first week in the uni that I love oh so much (can you taste the sarcasm?). The past week was busy busy busy. We had to fight for the lectures and tutorials that we wanted (so that our fridays are free of course), buy books and notes and on top of that I was involved in an event called Symphonyfest.

Symphonyfest is like a day for anyone who play or appreciate music to gather and have fun. It was a one day event but I was too tired to go for the morning session so I only went for the night performances and boy were they good. The classical and jazz orchestra, indian orchestra and chinese orchestra accompanied by the uni's choir members opened the show and they were totally awesome seeing that most of them only had a week to practise. The only down side was the choir's choice of song which was Belaian Jiwa and Warisan, too common for my taste.

But the performance that I was really looking forward to was by the gamelan group and they definitely did not dissapoint me. They totally rocked the night! The music that they played was so hypnotizing and by the end of the night I had convinced myself to learn to play an instrument (I think everyone who went left feeling like that ahhaha). Watching them play made me a little jealous that they have that talent. I definitely regret not learning to play an instrument when I was younger, sigh. But its ok my friend promised to teach me how to play drums and I'm now enrolled in gamelan ii so at least I'm making some progress, right?

After the students finished showing their talents and proving to people that we can also rock in music eventhough we are an engineering and technology university, the stage was given to two local artists, Cheryl Samad and Altimet. Cheryl opened with a big thank you for inviting her 'all the way' to tronoh (thats where the uni is located, fyi) which had the audience laughing cos we know that tronoh is like in the middle of nowhere but she thought that we were laughing cos she got the name wrong so that was pretty funny. Aaanyways they were actually here to promote their first albums respectively and sang a few songs for us. And honestly they were not bad. So support local artist yo!

The event ended at around 11.30 and I was suppose to stay for post event briefing till 2am so obviously I bailed and instead followed my friends out to mamak muahaha. Well here are some photos I took with my phone (which would explain the quality)

All rise!

Gamelan Group

Choir singing Jalur Gemilang accompanied by CNJ

Chinese Orchestra

The day will come...

Song of the moment : The Vines - Homesick

Hole

Someone pointed out to me that I let people take advantage of me. That I put more into a relationship than the other person. I laughed and told her that it was completely untrue. Then she went on and list a few examples. But I didnt see those actions as them stepping over my head at all. I did them because they're my friends. Because friends are very important to me. Besides what's wrong with helping a friend in need? She answered, "when the said friend would not do the same thing for you".

Song of the moment : Elliot Smith - Between the Bars

Globes and Maps

Friday, 29/06/2007
8.30am - 2.00pm
- Sieutheng and I arrived way too early at KL sentral (which was a good thing cos we ended up buying a map of Perak which helped us a LOT, trust me)
- at around 10 the rest of the roadtrip people started to arrive. had breakfast at McD and we were on our way
- first mission: squeezing 8 people with their luggages into an avanza that doesnt have a boot. Mission status : success
- second mission: finding a way out of kl and on to the highway. mission status : failed
- so there we were wandering around KL for half an hour until we finally managed to get on to the highway
- stopped at sg buloh at waited for darrens car
- once they arrived we delegated ourselves and headed towards bidor

avanza : jinz, me, fred, kok ket, rudy, ben, justin

darrens car : darren, josephine, christine, bev, sieutheng, sue ling
luggages : darrens car


2.00pm - 5.30pm
- according to darren he was going 80-90 km/h. the avanza was going 100-110 km/h but we didnt manage to catch up and instead held up the traffic ahhaha

- finally we arrived at bidor for lunch at the famous wantan shop
- we then decided to go to pasir salak to refresh our sejarah and also to re-enact the scene where jww birch got murdered
- with only a map to guide us we headed towards pasir salak (which turns out to be way off course but thats the point of a roadtrip rite)

- after about an hour plus of driving and making wrong turning and taking picture with durian and kelapa in the middle of the road and acting like a complete tourist we managed to find ourselves at the Pasir Salak Historical complex.
- we arrived at 4.25 and the complex was closing at 4.30 (great timing right?) aaanyways we walked around a bit, learned a few things, took photos and we were back on the road
- by this time everyone was so tired so we decided to head straight to penang

Somebody looks bored...

5.30pm - 8.30pm
- first thing we needed to do was find a way out of this place. ahhaha easier said that done even with a map.
- but we managed and after a long time soon we were back on the highway
- then it was just driving all the way

most of the time this was the car arrangement
avanza (the happening car ahhaha) : jinz, me, fred, kok ket, sieutheng, christine, ben, justin
darrens car : darren, josephine, bev, rudy, sue ling

8.30pm - 12.00am
- we're in Penang baby!
- paid the toll to get on penang bridge. 15 minutes later we're still not on the bridge eventhough its only 1km away from us (jam giler). justin who was excited at first since he has not been on the bridge before grew tired and kept asking his famous question "are we there yet?"

- finally we were on the bridge and everyone was hungry so we went to pulau tikus for dinner/supper
- they had char kuey teow while I had McDonalds ahhaha
- we sent josephine home and did a little snooping and had interesting conversation in the car while we got lost yet again
- finally arrived at the apartment at 12.02 am

Saturday, 30/06/2007
10.30am - 7.30pm
- everyone started waking up except for freddy who needed extra help to wake up ahhaha

- got ready and went to pick josephine up
- then with the help of a map we headed towards chulia street for their famous chicken rice
- after that we walked i repeat we walked under the hot sun towards jalan penang for their famous cendol and asam laksa but since everyone was full we only had cendol
- then we walked back to the car but not before stopping at 7-11 to cooldown our body (i think we stopped at the 7-11 three times and didnt buy anything)
- next destination : batu ferringhi baby! but first we needed to look at our map to see where it is ahhaha

- we arrived at the beach and in just a few minutes some of us decided to go parasailing (the most spontaneous descision made on the trip)
- then of course the most unforgettable moment of the trip happened. keyword : vomit. but names wont be mentioned to protect the said person ahhaha

- did a lot of camwhoring on the beach

- later headed back towards the apartment using a very winding road up and down the hill which caused the said person above and another one to get very sick.
- an hour later we arrived at the apartment where everyone cleaned up to go for dinner

9.30pm - 2.00am
- went out for dinner on macallister road
- had char kuey teow and oh jien overdose
- managed to get lost again (we got used to it)
- stopped at 7-11 to purchased what would turned up to be later named Peanut Butter Dip

- arrived at the apartment at 2am. the longest dinner we ever had.

Sunday, 1/07/2007
10.30am - 2.00pm
- everyone started waking up except for freddy, again
- we cleaned the house, packed our stuff and said goodbye

- we then went to lorong selamat to eat char kuey teow and oh jien again!
- after that at around 4 or 5 we made our way to the ferry. at this moment ben was doing the driving and for the first time justin wore his seatbelt ahhaha just kidding ben, you were a good driver.

- camwhoring again on the ferry and said goodbye to penang
- we managed to stop at 3 out of 3 stops along the way and even visited an arowana farm (totally random)
- then it was just driving all the way. and we changed drivers a few times so that everyone gets a chance to drive(note: the scarriest driver was justin cos he would always drive at 130km/h eventhough the limit was 110 km/h)
- while justin was driving we got caught in this huge jam before rawang so with nothing better to do we played truth or dare which later changed into dare or dare. the dares would not be mentioned here due to explicit reasons ahhaha. lets just say peanut butter, licking and body parts were involved. the rest is up to your imagination.

one of the dares

- around 11.00 we finally arrived in KL and we had dinner at where it all started, Stevens Corner.

Song of the moment : Landon Pigg - Keep Looking Up

Friend to a Stranger

So I had lunch today with a friend that I haven't seen for about a year now. And I remember feeling really scared and nervous to go meet her. I'm like that everytime I go out to meet someone. Let it be friends who i've known nearly my entire life or even family, I'll get this unsettling feeling inside. No idea where it comes from.

Anyways on the way I kept thinking how awkward it was going to be. Like there'll be awkward silence cos we have nothing to say those kinda stuff. I even made a list of things in my head of what to ask and stuff to talk about just in case you know. But I didn't have to use them. Thank God.

I guess what I'm trying to say is how lucky it is to find someone you can talk to and that they are actually interested to hear what you have to say and not have to be afraid of what they might think of you. These friendships are rare and if you happen to be in one of them, hold on to it and never let go. Cos if you do trust me you'll regret it.

I used to have two very close friends. We were unseperatable, we would do everything together and most of the times it would get us into trouble. Those were the days when we would meet each other everyday without fail. Then as we grew older unfortunately we grew apart. I can't really remember the exact moment it all change but from that moment onwards we were strangers, literally.

Trust me I would do anything to get it back, to the way it was but it takes two to tango. Well I guess in this case it would take three.

Song of the moment : The Hereafter - Back Where I Was

Get the Picture

So I've been studying at Nowhere Uni for about a year now and eventhough it took some time to get used to it, I'll have to admit its growing on me. So here are some pictures I took while walking around the campus =p

Presenting to you the place that I've been living at for the past year and many more years to come.

The Academic Complex where the labs and lectures are held

The Residential Area


The beautiful park at the center of the whole uni where nobody goes to (i wonder why...)

Random photos that we took that day

And this is the photo that we promised to take at the end of each year of our semester