Fall For You

"are you happy?

right here in your arms, i'm happy."

Something passed between them, something unsaid but as loud as if it had been shouted



Song of the moment : Kris Allen - Heartless

Crack the Shutters

All the things that has been going on in my life, some good and some bad, has taught me a lot of things. This past year I've been let down, appreciated, used, loved, disappointed, lied to but most importantly I've been accepted.

Two years has past and I'm blessed. I've learn so many things, met so many people and be given opportunities that I know I would never get if I had stayed to be with you.

So what is it that they saw in me that you didn't? Or is it what they didn't see in me but you did?

Batchmates, coursemates and most importantly, friends
Believe it or not even after two years of being in the same class together, I still manage to meet new people this semester.

The guys of Chemy July 06/07

The girls of Chemy July 06/07

New responsibility

Hopefully next year will be better cause if not then I could just die.



New family
The biggest part or change for that matter that I've been through.



Song of the moment: Lisa Hannigan - Ocean and A Rock

Islands in the Stream

Photos of our trip in chronological order

presenting the 10 of us

9.15pm - waiting for the bus at hentian putra

Day One

6.00am - breakfast at kuala besut

8.30am - chilling while we wait for the boat to take us to the island

10.00am - experiencing an ass hurting boat ride

3.00pm - swimming with the fishies :)
4.00pm - photo taken by justin who found himself "sick" again.
i think its a tradition that he gets "sick" at every trip hahaha

Day Two
10.30am - group photo on the rocks
10.45am - posing with the guys without their pants on wtf
2.00pm - whats a beach holiday without building sandcastles 3.00pm - preparing for our afternoon nap time hahaha
we take naps after every lunch wtf
4.00pm - dozing off with the sound of the waves in the background is the best

Day Three
11.00am - off to long beach for more eye candy, snorkeling, hole digging
and an experience to die for
2.00pm - chilling in the hole we dug which managed to fit all 10 of us 2.30pm - look its a banana boat! photos of them before splitting
6.15pm - haha we're gonna get losttt. damn you sunset :P
8.00pm - everyone safely at coral bay jetty. when we got back to cocohut
nearly everyone there knew we had gotten lost -_-
11.00pm - the last supper

Day Four
2.00pm - lunch is served. we only had chips and biscuits
4.00pm - byebye perhentian

photos courtesy of darren and suann.

Song of the moment: Sara Bareilles - Love Song

Belief

Right now, I don't know whether to feel excited or upset. I mean I've been waiting for this for so long and as days went by my hope was slowly slipping away. So I convinced myself that there was no point fretting over this matter. At first it was difficult, every little thing reminded me of you. But gradually I did manage to forget, until today. Just seeing those familiar words brought back all these feelings and memories that should have just stayed in the past.

Song of the moment: Glen Hansard - Lies

Twenty Years

Well I've been running from something
Twenty years in my car
Down a road that's leading me nowehere
Yeah we drive through the farmland
No one knows where we're from
Could I kiss you and make you a queen?
Or something in between

Do you want to see it
The place where I was free?
Cos in my mind I need it
But you're nowhere near to me

Move to new york city
Take your woman by the hand
Leave her there with your things on the doorstep
And there's no way around it
Could this be our last dance?
So fall asleep with the tv darling
I'll be back again

Do you want to see it
The place where I am free?
Cos in my mind I've been there
And there's no one here but me

In the morning it'll find you
Let the light shine away
Down a road that's leading me nowhere
And there's no way around it
Could this be our last dance?
Just fall asleep with the tv darling
I'll be back again
I'll be back again

-Augustana

Stop and Stare

The people have finally spoken

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Well done and well said.

Power to the people!

Song of the moment : Earlimart - Bloody Nose

Three Wishes

It's not that I'm being pessimistic or negative

I'm just being realistic

Those kind of things only happen in fairy tales and I'm pretty sure I'm not in one

But that's not to say I don't wish upon a star.

Song Album of the moment : Juno Original Soundtrack

Hmmm

You know what's really weird? No. Well here's your lucky day cos I'm gonna tell you. Have you ever been in a situation where you just discovered a new word, a word you that before this you have never ever heard of, and then once you've learn the word it's like everywhere! Newspapers, books, tv and even on freaking menus wtf. It's like the world learn the word the same time you did. What's up with that? Coincidence? I don't think so. Cos this thing has happen to me like 3 times already and the third one is the straw that broke the camel's back (cheh wah). So what the hell is going on? Sigh. I was in the mood for writing and this is what I came up with? wtf.

Ok ok so I wanna sum up what has happened during my holidays (which is going to end soon. TAK NAK!) but I'm only gonna tell you the happy things haha. My first week was spent in Penang where I got to bond with the cousins then we went to Bukit Merah where I drove my dad's car without him knowing it haha so don't tell him that, seriously. Then I got back to KL and finally started my driving lessons haha well I actually planned on having my P license by the time I wrote this post but sadly I don't have them yet and I don't want to talk bout that dreaded day for many other depressing reasons haha. Aaanyways a few days later I went to a camp in PD where I got to hang wit my Nowhere Uni friends and had weird late night convo and unexpected revelations.

Then on the 21st we had a really cool secret santa thing for Christmas (so cool that we're making it an annual thing, I hope) and after that we went to jin hang's place to play nintendo wii and poker haha, skip a few days and we were hanging out on Christmas eve at *drum rolls* McDonalds haha, had an awesome new years at freds place (we miss you freddy!) where we played a resolution game (btw mine was to be someone that I would like and the other is to be happy with what happens and have no regrets on what didn't happen, now thats deep haha kidding, sorry inside joke. and oh ya i would also like to steal jon's resolution which is to love the family more), then after some miscommunication we had bbq at haow kang's place (which i like better than yours fred haha kidding again) which is also a farewell thing for those leaving in january sob sob and finally saying goodbye to the leaving friends at the airport.

So it has been a very eventful holiday as you can see and of course the bestest is being able to hang out with the best friends gossiping and talking bout everyone who is not there aka our bonding time haha. I'm gonna miss you guys!

Song of the moment : A Fine Frenzy - Ashes & Wine

Almost, But

Hey, so if you actually know me you'll know that I'm not the most open person in the world. I keep everything inside for reasons that I myself don't quite understand. I rarely let anyone in and if someone gets too close I pull away.

Aaaanyways I was thinking about death a lot the couple of days (maybe cos I was at the hospital a lot) and I began to wonder what if I had died (don't worry I'm fine) and no one got to know the real me. My family and friends would have memories of who they think is me but in reality it's actually not. And that scared me cos I won't be there to tell them how wrong they are, no one will. Then I thought about what my friends and family would say about me and how they would contradict each other which I think would be pretty funny (for me) and shocking (for them).

I am actually 2 different people (no not in a nikki/jessica way). Who I am with my family is different with who I am with my friends. Which is the real me? Most definitely not who I am with my family. Believe it or not my family are the ones who have no freaking idea who I am but sadly they think that they are the one who actually knows me. Well here's the truth who I am to my friends are pretty close to who I truly am but not quite yet. I still hold back when I'm with them. Maybe cos I'm afraid, of what I'm not sure.

So in case I die (which everyone will sooner or later, hopefully later) here's something that you most probably don't know bout me (actually one person do know bout this, but she might have forgotten). I create, make up, narrate, whatever you want to call it, stories in my head. I would have a storyline and everything based on fictional characters and sometimes based on non-fictional characters. All my stories are usually very angst and deals with real life situation. I won't tell you what its about nor will I share them cos that would be too much.

I don't know why I do it. Maybe cos I'm bored and have nothing better to do or cos I hate my life and so I create another world where I can escape or maybe cos I was a writer in my pass life or maybe it's because I have no life. Yes I'm feeling really down bout myself right now. And all that I can think about is to just go somewhere far away and escape everything. But I'll come back though cos no matter what running away is not the answer.

Sorry bout the angst post everyone. Btw here's a quote that I keep hearing and it can't seem to get out of my head

"Always remember that you are unique, just like everyone else"

Song of the moment : The Last Goodnight - Pictures of You

It's over. It's so over.

I had so much hope on you

You were the one that wasn't going to disappoint me

You were suppose to make it all better

I expected this from the rest but never from you

Thats why its hurting so much more

But I dont blame you

Its not your fault

I only have myself to blame.

Jigsaw Falling Into Place

I feel like I'm on top of the world!

And no one can take this feeling away from me, especially not you.

Song of the moment: Dave Barnes - Until You

Where There's Gold...

Time flies. Kelip mata buka mata kelip mata buka mata and it is already nearing the end of my 3rd semester at Nowhere Uni. My finals is in a week or so and biasala i'm so not prepared for it. I think this would be THE semester. I can feel it in my guts. But watever, I dont care. Seriously.

I've been thinking, why should i try so hard to excel in something when it is not something i want to truly do? Don't get me wrong, it's not that I dont give a shit. I do. I'm not that selfish cos if I was then I wouldn't be here. But here's the thing it's in my nature to want to be good in everything that I do. But maybe this time I could make an exception. Cos maybe i'm just tired. Tired of trying to keep everyone happy.

So this semester I acted a little selfish. I did the things that I want. And everything turned out great. I made new friends (well some were not exactly new la. I mean we were friends before but now we became friends, got it? ahhaha) and I was involved in one of the biggest event here which is EDX 20 (Engineering Design eXhibiton).

EDX is an event held every semester where students from third and final year are able to present their designs/projects to be judged. This semester EDX20 introduced a new category which was open innovation (OIC) where anyone was able join. So one of my friends decided to take a chance and enter us in. Luckily for us we got one of our lecturers as an advisor and he gave us his idea on what we should do. And let me tell you preparing for EDX was a whole lotta fun. Plus my group members were awesome. No one could have pick a better team.

Aaaanyways here are some photos that we took

Pre-EDX

The EE Lab where we did our circuit
( We felt so out of place as we were from chemical and petroleum programme)

Our work table
(it looks very organized rite? actually I wanted to make it look messy but then tak berjaya)

Cheh concentrationg konon

Kuhan smiling at God knows what
(See those rulers on the table? We have no idea where they are now)

Adonis and I posing with our finished base

Presenting "A System to Uphold Exam Integrity"
(it looks so lonely...)

Our finished poster
( We stayed up till 5.30am to finish it!)

Taking a break while designing our booth

EDX 20 - Day One

Opening Ceremony of EDX 20 at undercroft
(its located below our chancellor complex; so we're actually "underground")

I want! I want! I want!

The team minus Adonis cos he went back to change wtf

CheatBusters
(such a lame name, i know. trust me the previous name was lame-r)

Our very "shy" system
(first time its being shown to people)

Kuhan presenting, Nirash looking confused and Adonis well I have no idea

Our system being judged (wah... center of attention...)

Me with the system (poyonyer)

First time EDX was held at the Chancellor Complex
(the building behind me is the library)

EDX 20 - Day Two

We won! We won!
(We won the gold medal, got 2nd for most innovative award and was awarded best presenter for OIC)

The complete team
(from left: Kuhan, Adonis, Dr Balbir, Nirash, Me, Aiman)

Song of the moment : Matchbox Twenty - How Far We've Come