Conversations

Two years ago I didn’t even have to think twice before making that decision. I would have done anything just to be there. Now, things changed, people changed and priorities have changed. So much has happened over the past year and it’s such a shame that I couldn’t share them with you.

Gone were the days where you knew everything that was going on in my life. I wish I knew the point where our relationship changed maybe I could have helped. There’s no one to blame for this thing happening. We got lost in our own life and day by day we were pushed further apart until we couldn’t even see each other anymore. This is not the first time this has happened and things were looking up last year.

Somewhere along the way you changed and yea maybe to you I was the one who changed but I’m reaching out now but it seems that you’re not willing to meet me halfway. I waited for weeks and everyday I was disappointed. I promised I wouldn’t make the first move because I needed to know what I was to you. And finally yesterday I got my answer. It saddens me that it’s going to end this way.

Maybe I was too optimistic in thinking that 10 years from now we would still be having our weekly coffee outing and you would still be part of my life. I wonder if you still remember what you said 4 years ago, if you even meant it at all.

Song of the moment: The Cinematic Orchestra - To Build A Home

Belle of the Boulevard

Your timing sucks. You seem to always catch me in a bad mood. Maybe just thinking of talking to you puts me into one, I don't know. And I'm sorry for that I really am. I know you don't believe me. You seem to think that I don't care and maybe it's cause I don't show it and I'm sorry for that too but it's difficult for me to show it when you don't give me a chance. It sucks that I don't feel comfortable enough with you. If I had a wish it would be that our relationship was different. I am not going to ruin this apology with an excuse. So I'm really sorry and I promise that I will work harder. I mean it this time. They say you can't miss something that you never had, but I miss us.

A Daily Anthem

The things I learnt over the weekend

1. Being alone doesn't mean you're lonely
2. The Final Destination was gross - not recommended
3. Beth Cooper was not bad (maybe cause I had such low expectation hahahah)
4. People who just met you would be impressed by you but I'm immune to it now and sometime I think it's annoying (but i still love you)
5. You do not defy me
6. Majority of us hate you but I'm one of the minority
7. Indecisive people annoy me
8. I have a newfound respect for you
9. I miss you.

Note to self: the past always always trump the present.

Song of the moment: Drive - Bersama Bintang

Famous Last Words

Just beacause you can't see me,
doesn't mean I'm not there.

Time Won't Let Me Go

How do you decide, when you are put in between your future and your past? The past is what made you who you are now. And the future is where you will be. The past will definitely have an upper hand as it has been with you your entire life. But the future holds something unknown. I've known you less but I can't deny the potential that you have.

For now the past has won but who knows what the future might bring.


Song of the moment: Laura Marling - Ghosts

Fall For You

"are you happy?

right here in your arms, i'm happy."

Something passed between them, something unsaid but as loud as if it had been shouted



Song of the moment : Kris Allen - Heartless