Lost

Arghhhhh!

what happened?

was it human error?

or a technology mistake?

i hope its the latter.

Song of the moment : Joshua Radin - Closer

Is It Any Wonder?

I can't even begin to describe it. That feeling I had. Seeing your name there. My heart started beating faster. And for awhile I couldn't stop smiling. I just kept staring at your name. I so badly wanted to tell someone or yelled it out loud for the world to know. But I didn't. Cause if the world knew then it would mean that you'd know. And as much as I want you to know, I really don't.

I took a deep breath and calmed myself. I mean it's just your name right? What's the big deal? But it is a big deal because it means that you actually did what I asked you to do. To be honest I didn't think you would actually do it. I thought you would just forget about it once you stepped out of the restaurant. But you surprised me.

I thought I had to pester you like crazy just like the first time for you to do it. I even had a whole plan and everything. The first time I had to wait for days until you finally did it. So this time I actually prepared myself for the wait. So imagine my surprise to see your name on the list. You actually did it and of course I accepted your invitation.

After that I did the usual things and I stumbled upon your name again. Right there on the top. What a surprise! And on the same day I might add. It was so random. I don't think you've done this before. Well there's a first for everything right? And my day which started out pretty crappy just got a whole lot better. So maybe 2007 won't be so bad after all.

And as I'm writing this I began to wonder. Will this ever go away?

Song of the moment : 8mm - Forever And Ever Amen

Reason To Believe

I walked around saying hello to everyone while waiting for the guys to set up everything in front. I even managed to play a round of big 2. Funny how something that was usually associated with another part of my life can now be associated with the other and finally the two different parts of my life had something in common.

People started coming in. Those who belonged and those invited by friends. But none of it mattered. What started as a group of 30 people had now evolved to 60 people. We took our seats on the floor and waited for it to start. The opening music began and on the screen there was a white feather aimlessly going wherever the wind would take it. Just like our situation 5 days ago. Just doing whatever we were told to. No questions asked.

We've come so far from who we were. We've changed and it's for the better. As I look around I could see some sitting on the floor. Sitting on chairs. Lying on chairs they arranged. Some even lying on their friends. It was our last night at the place and we subconsciously decided to spent it together. Locked in a room. Holding on to our kain pelekat. Cos it was freezing like hell! While watching a movie.

As we were watching the movie we were greeted with a familiar face. Everyone was whispering, "hey is that guy from csi:ny". And just by seeing him in the movie we felt good and calmed. It was like the feeling where you know someone or something familiar in a strange place and you realise that you're not alone in this. Then nearing the end of the movie we were greeted again with another familiar face. He was so young in the movie. Prooving to us how old the movie is. And we started whispering again. This time it was "hey is that kid from A.I. and The Sixth Sense". To be honest I've watched this movie a few times but I've never realised him to be in there.

None of us expected this is how it would end. To be honest we had no expectations at all. But they we were, together. I'm pretty sure that this night would be the last time we would actually spend time with most of the people there. Cos once the movie ends and once we leave that room things would go back to the way it was. The room was like a twilight zone. When we enter it we were friends but once we walked out we were strangers again.

But that night in the room it was just us. No one cared what cliques you were in or what course you're doing. No one was worried about the exam results that was going to be out the next day. That night there was no one to give us pressure. For the two hours we were in that room it was enough to give us hope that we were going to be okay. All we have to do is believe in ourselves.

Here's a famous quote from the movie we watch
"Life is like a box of chocolate, you'll never know what you're gonna get"

Song of the moment : Ray LaMontagne - Lesson Learned

The Forecast

Don't think about it, just act on it!

Say hello to chances and goodbye to what ifs.

Song of the moment : The Calling - Our Lives