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Yea!!
I got it!!

I have been waiting a long long time to watch this movie and now the time has come. You have no idea how desperately I wanted to watch this and now its just a mouse click away! Ever since I saw the trailer I was hooked. I looked for it everywhere and I knew the probability of finding it was like low but I kept looking. Everytime I went to Singapore I would stalk all their video stores looking for the dvd. I didn't care how much it would cost me. I wanted to watch it damnit! And it killed me that it would never show in Malaysia not because of sensitive issues or anything but because the movie was in french and Malaysia don't usually screen french films. I remember coming very close to it once. I was in Bangkok and I was in the car when I looked out and there it was this huge ass poster of the movie right outside the theatre. I got all excited inside and all giddy but then I looked at the bottom of the poster and my heart sank. There in white capital letters were COMING SOON. NOOOOO I screamed. Why couldn't they just show it now when I was in town! But thats that now I have it right in front of me. Seriously I didnt think that this day would come so soon. It amazes me that I actually got what I wanted! Anyways I'm going to go watch it now byebye.

Oh ya the title of the movie is Jeux D'enfants (I asked a friend and apparently it means child's game or something like that) or the english title Love Me If You Dare.

Movie of the moment : Jeux D'enfants

Dead Wrong

I don't even know where to begin. But I need to let this out or it would slowly consume me. I've been keeping this anger inside me and I'm just so tired of hiding it anymore. I hate how I'm always compared to you. You're their little angel. Everyday all I hear is "why can't you be more like her? she's so selfless". Oh please you're the most self centered person I know!

Everything has to be about you. And I hate the fact that no one can see who you really are. What's your problem seriously? Why is it so hard for you to help others for once? Everytime you ask for help I'll always be there even if I have exam the next day. I remember I even had to do an assignment for you once! You know I don't mind helping you but it would help if you'd return the favour once a while.

And it's not like I ALWAYS ask for your help whenever I have something to do. Not like some people. I would always have this feeling inside me whenever I'm on the phone with you helping you with your work (again) that if it was the other way around no way in hell will you be doing what I'm doing. You'll just make up excuses and in the end I'll have do it all by myself.

God I'm just so angry with you right now! You know I actualy don't really mind this at all. Let's just say I've grown immune towards it. But today was not a good day and you refused to help me when I desperately needed it hence this post. My phone is vibrating and a french song is heard but I'm not going to pick it up. There's always a first time for everything.

Song Album of the moment : The String Quartet Tribute to The Fray

More Than Words

I just finished reading a fanfic which I've never come across before which was odd cause on this particular fanfic website I've read almost all of the fanfic posted. The good, the bad even the ugly. So imagine my surprise to see this unfamiliar title. I looked up the author and was further surprised cause I've read the author's work before and she was one of the good ones. If you know what I mean. So why is it I haven't come across this work of hers? I clicked on the link and started reading it word by word. Every sentence, every paragraphed awed me.

You see I've been reading fanfic a lot but I've never written them. But I've dreamt about writing them though. I would make up stories in my head with all this fictional characters but I never told anyone (and now I've told you) well maybe one person knows about this. So I was reading this particular fanfiction and I felt a connection, a sense of familiarity. This was the kind of story that I would write if I could.

It has the correct combination of angst, romance, comedy and of course drama. Just by reading the prologue I was intrigued and soon it became my all-time favourite fanfiction. I could see how much work the author had put in this fanfiction of hers. There was just so much detail. She would put up pictures of the characters whenever they were first introduced. Pictures of places they're at or things they owned. And it was never over the top you know.

She thought about everything. But the one thing that really stands out was the quotes she'd place and the end of a scene. The quotes are so meaningful (i know thats why they're quotes) and fits the story just so perfectly. And most importantly it affects the reader in one way or another. This is what a good fanfiction is. Even after closing the page the words are still in your head, in your heart. You don't mind reading it over and over again just in case you missed something which is impossible since you read it word by word (yea i admit i read this story a few times). You cry with the characters. You feel their joy and even sadness. You'd visit the sit everyday just to see whether its been updated. It's very rare to find this kind of fanfiction which is why once you find it bookmark it!

The reason I’m actually writing this post is because the said fanfiction hasn’t been updated so I found myself reading the story again and I just had the urge to blog about it. And I really hope that it gets updated soon cause I want to know what happens next (she left us with a cliffhanger, evil right?)!

Some quotes taken from the story

"You can fall in love in an instant. It's letting go that takes time."

"The magic of first love is our ignorance that it can never end."

"Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Others stay for awhile, leave footprints in our hearts, and we're never the same."

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.
~ Sam Keen

"Love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it."

The worst thing about being lied to is knowing you weren't worth the truth.

Courage is not the lack of fear but the ability to face it."

"A good scare is worth more to a man than good advice."

Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose. ~From the television show The Wonder Years

Children make you want to start life over. ~Muhammad Ali

There are no secrets better kept than the secrets that everybody guesses.

Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated. ~Lamartine

Maybe part of loving is learning to let go. ~From the television show The Wonder Years

Courage is almost a contradiction in terms. It means a strong desire to live taking the form of readiness to die. ~G.K. Chesterton

A stiff apology is a second insult.... The injured party does not want to be compensated because he has been wronged; he wants to be healed because he has been hurt. ~G.K. Chesterton

Never ruin an apology with an excuse. ~Kimberly Johnson

True remorse is never just a regret over consequence; it is a regret over motive. ~Mignon McLaughlin, The Neurotic's Notebook, 1960

Life and death are balanced on the edge of a razor. ~Homer, Iliad

In bringing up children, spend on them half as much money and twice as much time. ~Author Unknown

Give sorrow words; the grief that does not speak whispers the o'er-fraught heart and bids it break. ~William Shakespeare

When the world says, "Give up,"
Hope whispers, "Try it one more time."
~Author Unknown

The ultimate test of a relationship is to disagree but to hold hands. ~Quoted by Alexandra Penney in Self

If you're angry at a loved one, hug that person. And mean it. You may not want to hug - which is all the more reason to do so. It's hard to stay angry when someone shows they love you, and that's precisely what happens when we hug each other. ~Walter Anderson, The Confidence Course, 1997

What is the opposite of two? A lonely me, a lonely you. ~Richard Wilbur

Absence from whom we love is worse than death, and frustrates hope severer than despair. ~William Cowper

Call it a clan, call it a network, call it a tribe, call it a family. Whatever you call it, whoever you are, you need one. ~Jane Howard


Song of the moment : Vega4 - Life Is Beautiful